You put that voice in my head that says I'm an idiot
a war erupts within, When I shout
"shut up, shut up, Shut UP!" I'm trying to win it
self hatred isn't the bug, it's the feature
It's the way I was wired I believed it would push me to grow and improve
but no matter how I grew the voice of your hatred always came through
matter, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter
anymore
Sometimes I get mad at myself
sometimes I just hate myself
when I try to sleep
When I'm sitting at my desk
when I remember what I said
when I remember what I did
I wanna rip my hair out
I'm gonna scratch myself
I'm really mad at myself
and I just hate myself
Somebody was supposed to love me, instead
made me think I was better off dead
taught the voice inside my head to call me names
I'm not so mad at you
You did what you had to do
I've healed my childhood wounds and
I hope you can too
but matter, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter anymore
credits
from The Ape,
released June 1, 2023
Song by Sophie Saffan.
Guitar - Sophie Saffan.
Drums - Brent Davenport.
Bass - Olivia Bewley.
Produced by Will Wise.
Mastered by Jesse Mangum at The Glow.
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