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The Ape
02:29
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We are stardust, we are golden
We are blood and shit and urine
We are gods - or are we animals?
Alike unfit to sink or soar
Evolving right out of my skin I'm reaching for
Survival resting on the herd's protection
A frantic free for all race for affection
The stray cannot survive the elements
With neither strength nor wit
To go alone in confidence
A desperate bid to please our peers, we sing and dance
The Ape, The Ape, The Ape
All the ape wants is to be accepted
member of the tribe
and not to be rejected
all the ape wants is to be accepted
that's my only objective
So when the zombies come, just give me the gun
I wasn't meant for running, I was meant for fun
If the oceans rise, give me the cyanide
I got no special skills to help the herd survive
I can sing a little song around the fire
Am I lovable enough to come along for the ride
Will I be insulated by the strong on the outside
will the poets and the prophets be left behind
When it's back into survival mode and the ape in the genetic code
All the ape wants is to be accepted
member of the tribe
and not to be rejected
all the ape wants is to be accepted
that's my only objective
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2. |
Slut Shame
02:22
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Slut shame me I was a lover
this place has gotten inside me and I didn't try to stop it
I hurt I was hurt and it hurt
my confidence wound up in the dirt
I loved this town so much it hurt
drive by the places that remind me of things that I did
and people that I loved when I was 20
Stupid don't even begin to describe it
drive around chasing your hallucinations
letting her name swim around in my head
waking up with him so early in the morning
graduation sweat drip down my forehead
none claimed me I was a fighter
boyfriends were loose ends that never tied up
ugly voice, shaking on the open mic stage
gave breath for the very first time
to the words that have come to define me
down town getting drunk on my own
wound up with you ground into the floor
that's why I swore off drinking
am I sober now
but it's clear, oh yes it's clear
oh yes it's clear
there's still a wild whisper in my ear
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3. |
Octopus Socks
03:07
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A tentacle wrapped around my ankle
gently guides my feet along the sea floor
sometimes just right, sometimes too tight
My octopus socks hold my feet forever
wherever they go I will follow too
never alone
my suction cup seduction keeps me at home
in my lagoon and I am not afraid of being understood
my words are safe at the bottom of this trench
ten thousand tons of water over head
I have the bends
I see no light, and know where it ends, nowhere it ends
perpetual night
but also
A light piercing through the blue-green casting rays of
ecstatic energy
through my corner of the sea
I dream of bursting through the surface, sunlight burning in my eyes
salt water crashing up my nose
salt water sloshing down my throat
filling up my lungs
bleaching my rotten soul
laughing at my hubris
scolding me for arrogance
punishing my deviance
feeling betrayed by me
a monster of the deep
I wake up somewhere dry and warm and covered in sand
I'm marooned on a desolate desert island
But I wasn't attacked by sharks, or dashed against the rocks, or any of the things I feared when I was wearing my
Octopus Socks
Well it's not all palm trees and coconuts here
But it's Me, minus the Fear
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Matter
02:31
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You put that voice in my head that says I'm an idiot
a war erupts within, When I shout
"shut up, shut up, Shut UP!" I'm trying to win it
self hatred isn't the bug, it's the feature
It's the way I was wired I believed it would push me to grow and improve
but no matter how I grew the voice of your hatred always came through
matter, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter
anymore
Sometimes I get mad at myself
sometimes I just hate myself
when I try to sleep
When I'm sitting at my desk
when I remember what I said
when I remember what I did
I wanna rip my hair out
I'm gonna scratch myself
I'm really mad at myself
and I just hate myself
Somebody was supposed to love me, instead
made me think I was better off dead
taught the voice inside my head to call me names
I'm not so mad at you
You did what you had to do
I've healed my childhood wounds and
I hope you can too
but matter, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter anymore
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5. |
Lullybye
02:27
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Lullybye, Lullybye, Lullybye
Lullybye is part of my consiousness
Lullybye is a child but she knows best
and she knows, she knows best
What you all need from me I don't get
I don't even know what words are yet.
Lullybye, Lullybye, Lullybye
Lullybye puts fires out with her tears
Lullybye is still crying after all these years
cause she knows. She knows best
I don't know what I need to say here
Words are like, my biggest fear
Lullybye you give me strength
Lullybye you give me strength
It's like you're a baby
and you give me the reason why
Oh Lullybye, you give me the reason why
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6. |
Algorithm
02:36
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Echo chamber, misinformation
Rabbit hole radicalization
Data mining, read my mind
Advertisement, isolation
Curated images of lives unlived
Unfiltered hate speech in the global south
The algorithm strikes again
You're watching what it recommends
Send the link to all your friends
The vicious cycle never ends
I can't get out of bed without a talking head
it knows me better than I know myself
Insurrection coordinated
ethnic cleansing organization
genocide in Ethiopia
violent content, no moderation
Holidays with the folks ain't worth the trip
loved ones lost forever to its grip
The algorithm strikes again
You're watching what it recommends
Send the link to all your friends
The vicious cycle never ends
I can't get out of bed without a talking head
it knows me better than I know myself
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7. |
Go to the Ocean
03:03
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I'm so sad that I can't be happy
about the 2 lines, the plus sign, the letters spelling "yes"
your two arms around me
mystery of life inside a solo cup full of piss
25 just begun to feel alive
band finally playing, bout to start grad school
life is throwing everything it has at me at once
and I can't be everything to everyone
tomorrow I will make the call
tonight I drink tea
I don't wanna call my mom
and hear the sadness in her voice
to me, it's not a choice, to me it's not even a choice
because it's not, I don't, I can't, I won't
I'd rather die than change right now
I run two miles a day my pride and joy is Sasha Stray
I'm so sad that I can't be happy
Sad that I can't be happy
I want this all over and done
I want to go to the ocean and run
Want this all over and done
I want to go to the Ocean
When did life begin? I say it was 3 and a half billion years ago
on a planet called Earth
Cambrian Explosion
and ever since then it's been unstoppable
Have you seen clovers cropping up through the cracks in the concrete? Have you seen mold spreading out on a loaf of bread that you wanted to eat?
Life begins at conception you say
but upon further inspection
why not when strangers lock eyes
begin to fantasize about becoming lovers
Or was my existence set in motion with the birth of my mother
and so on back to the big bang
if you'll concede that
the universe began in some spectacular way
life is life it will go on
Multiple billion human beings
fertile for some 20 years
rapidly multiplying
many living in poverty
needlessly but for some others' greed
still you feign outrage at a
terminated pregnancy
spare me the drama go foster a child
give to the poor if you're feeling wild
I can't stand the hypocrisy
go do something to actually
alleviate human suffering
I want it all over and done
I want to go to the ocean and run
I want it all over and done
I want to go to the ocean
go to the ocean
When this is gone, the light will still be there
I'm gonna give it all to me
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